๐ Yesterday, I enjoyed nature instead of discussing my struggles. This morning, I read a comment from a doctor contemplating quitting their residency to pursue hiking and writing, which resonated with my own journey.
๐ค Many people asked about alternatives to quitting jobs. My experience taught me that itโs not just about leaving a job; itโs about trusting and loving yourself. I could have found fulfillment in neurosurgery, but I didnโt follow my heart.
๐ At 18, after my first year at MIT, I chose a philosophy major against my heart's desire. My parents worried about my future, and I felt pressured to pursue medicine for financial security, leading to 20 years of suffering.
๐ I struggled with decision-making and self-trust, which affected my relationships and mental health. I often felt angry and frustrated, reflecting my internal conflict.
๐ธ I tried to fill the void with money and material possessions, but they didnโt bring happiness. I also turned to video games and alcohol to numb my feelings, which only created more problems.
๐ง I realized that my inability to trust myself stemmed from that pivotal moment at 18. I began to explore my feelings and past choices, leading to a deeper understanding of myself.
๐ Recently, I tried a legal psychedelic mushroom, which helped me confront my anger and the truth about my feelings. It revealed how I had been lying to myself.
๐ I learned the importance of self-forgiveness through the Hawaiian prayer "Ho'oponopono." I had to apologize to myself for my past choices and embrace self-love.
๐ The alternative to quitting isnโt about leaving your job; itโs about learning to love and forgive yourself. I hope my journey helps others to stop lying to themselves.